Being Equal does NOT Mean Similar

When I hear demands like rights for someone, e.g. 'rights for women' or 'equal pay day', my only question is, why do we even have to ask for it.
What makes one group so self-absorbed, to think they are the 'leading' group and deserve better pay for the same work? (And I don't want to even start, that women don't even get the same jobs as men, because at least here in my work area still the motto is strong: If you have a work where real work is needed, you chose a woman, when you have a job where you need someone to talk and lead and get followers and workers behind him, you take a man. And also, if you have someone who does the work well, you don't promote him (rather her) away from that post. If you have someone, who does the work badly (because he feels too good for the job or just can't be bothered with all the details necessary), you promote him away. [Not mere hypotheses, but real-live and experienced examples.])

White men?

What is so special about them?
That they are judged as the 'norm' in medicine, as to the detriment of women, who are not regarded in research as well as in the measurements and dosages of medicine, because their bodies react so unreliably?
Perhaps there is a reason, why women react differently.
I for long knew that fact, that the recommended dosage of medicine never was right for me. Not even the vitamins and food supplements in the recommended proportions do me any good and I need to be very careful to try and find my own limits and needs.
I a while ago found a Spanish reporter living and working in the U.K., who writes interesting books and newsletters about those topics. If you are interested, her famous book "Invisible Women" by Caroline Criado Perez came out in many different languages already.

Today, we think of ourselves as being so enlightened, so overly clever, so beyond the Middle Ages.
But are we really?

I state for years, that we are not. That the workers in the Middle Ages were not without rights and were safe from hunger and their families were cared for, because the master was obliged to care for them all, not only as long as he needed them, but for life. What company nowadays does that? They throw out the mere workers, who produced their profits, to maximize the benefits for the management and manipulate the short-term calculations.
If they were a real management, they would find work for their well educated and specialized workforce. But the greatest mismanagement is the management itself, not being creative enough to think ahead, beyond their report sheets and their annual bonuses, to find the work to occupy their trained staff.
With that, I don't divide between colors of the skin.
Why should I?
Greed is universal. Stupidity as well.
It is not limited to white men, nor green women ;o) Just joking. (In German, I most likely would have said 'lilablassblaue Frauen', but English has no equivalent for that 'lovely, nonexistent color'.)
Women more often are forced to see reality, as they are much more pressured into conformity by their surrounding, so their ability to establish a group-sense and peace is often much more developed than among men. Men want to fight out their rank to establish their supremacy. (That is one reason why they are ideal for masonry and the higher levels appeal to them, while those high grades/levels often have a rather annoying feeling for most women.) Women instinctively know, that supremacy won't keep the peace, but instead create war and that is when their children suffer.
They also sense that women can only flourish in peace and well structured and law-abiding societies and women as a consequence are prepared to establish peace with crass (or brutal) methods, if need be and no other option is available. They mostly are only called into government or leading positions, when the problems seem insurmountable or there is nothing in it for a man to shine.

In societal rules, women would be the 'leading' and higher standing entity, which is shown by the woman being the first to enter a room or to be introduced or to be addressed or be served food, ... Those rules were established in the Middle Ages and Renaissance, but have the one common element throughout the European societies, that the women are the more valuable individual in society. Certainly, only because of their child bearing abilities, to create the next generation of humankind, but none the less. What man today still thinks like that and would give the woman precedence without mocking her at the same time or throwing the opened door in her face? (Happened to me repeatedly, so no unrealistic event.) After all, he is the leading and stronger individual and needs to show, that he only plays the societal role, because he is well behaved, not because he thinks the woman deserves it for her own value.

The differences between men and women and their special abilities though are still important, but can only spread the beneficial effect of all abilities, if we value the diverse strengths. But especially with women, for centuries, women got told that they are 'weak', 'unworthy of equal pay, because their work is mediocre, ...
It is a (supposed) compliment for a woman to get told, that she works like a man. Tell the counterpart to a man and you should have quick feet or rather have to bear the consequences of his opinion about that statement. And he certainly will not see it as a compliment, however well you try to phrase it.
So what is so wrong with women's work, when the most 'work' is done by women and men want the right to pick their field of interest and leave the uninteresting, meticulous or boring parts to women (like basic programming code, which initially was a man's domain, as long as it had the implication of a pioneer field. As soon as it became 'work', it was willingly handed over to women, who only got a small percentage of the pay their male colleagues had received for it).

So this example shows that people are equal or at least mostly can do the same work without problems. Just that women have to do the work the men 'leave' for them or men can't be bothered to do themselves. (And I don't speak about cooking for the family, as that women do and historically took up to appease the male aggression and keep a peaceful homestead.)
Women's work needs to pass judgement by men. But women's occupations, even knitting, grow out of boring housewife occupations to something interesting, as soon as men take it up. (I like knitting very much and neither think it house-wify boring nor male, just creative, meditative and satisfying !!!  I think more men should take it up and their opinion about women not being able to calculate and do their math would definitely change. They also could learn some patience with it ...)

Men and women, countries, ethnic groups, cultures and religions should be seen and are equal in my opinion.
But they are not 'the same'.
And that is the main problem. Not even the Union of Europe showed us a good example of this 'coming together of equals', as it continuously tries to make all of us similar and only can cope with us all, if we all have the same curves and angles in cucumbers, ...

Even back in my time at school, we had an example discussion, pretending to be of different opinion about the crusades. For some reason, nobody wanted to join the position I had to defend, so I had to defend it against 7 schoolmates all at once.
In the end, the teacher wanted us to find to a compromise and minimal consensus.
I did not comply and told him, I don't think we should come to a minimal consensus and compromise at the end of a discussion, just because of sitting down and talking together, as we should respect each other, even if we were of different opinion and first should learn about our different positions, before we judge and want to put our opinion over the other or come to a compromise that means nothing to either side, as it is neither side's opinion.
If we can't respect others, who have a different opinion, then the world is due to fail anyway.

How true my words back then as a tiny and embarrassed pupil were.
The world is not one iota further than it was back then.
We discuss, but only accept the other opinions, if they are like ours.

No! That is not my life. My way is, to discover the multitude of reasons and thoughts and find the beauty in the colorful world that is.
I don't want to bring the world down to my limited experiences and my limited brain.
No, I want to expand my brain capacity and cherish the magnitude of what exists and yes, I believe 'God and his Light created'.

So I don't have to say xy... matters. Who am I to judge?
Everyone matters in the same way, or not at all.
But we are not very grateful for the present of life or another individual's existence. (Women are more grateful though, because they know how hard it is earned and how painful it is to come by.)


But as I am a mere woman, who will ever listen to my ramblings ;o)

Why Politicians Should not Lie

That politicians lie and adjust the truth to fit their goals and self-presentation, is no secret and well proven throughout history. (Just see Prof. Dr. John Mearsheimer's book "Why Politicians Lie" for enough examples.)

But in one certain example, I am of the opinion, that a publicly proclaimed lie and transformation of true events backfired and resulted in the 'new cold war' between the Western Powers and Russia in combination with the 'New South' and also directly in the creation of the War in the Ukraine.

The US President Bill Clinton declared, that the US had won the Cold War and also had reached the German unification by its strength of Western politics.

But how did he come to these erroneous conclusions, when the US had not won anything and had not had an active hand in the Unification of the two German states at all?

A discussion of American historians brought me to the conclusion, that in the US and Canadian universities, the knowledge about the true events how the German unification came about, is not part of their curriculum.

They discussed the presidency of Ronald Reagan and they could not find a clear indication, how he was able to begin the appeasement politics with the UDSSR and Mikhail Gorbachev.

My answer to that is, they look in the wrong direction, if they want to find leads, those were not in the US, but rather deeply set in Germany and on a personal level between politicians.

Under Helmut Kohl, the clear result was declared, that to reach the 'go-ahead' from the United States, they would hand over the 'success' to the Americans, so that they would not prevent the German reunification. But all the required steps and discussions leading up to this step solely (!) resulted from the personal friendship between Helmut Kohl and Mikhail Gorbachev.

Nothing else lead to the reunification of Germany.

No winning of a 'cold war', 
no economic supremacy,
no democratic superiority,
no moral leadership,
as well as no other stupidity ...

 The sole reason for the German reunification was the personal sympathy between Helmut Kohl and Mikhail Gorbachev and especially the Western sympathies Mikhail Gorbachev held and his interest in Western culture.

So I find it disgusting, how now, before his death and after the beginning of the Ukrainian war, Germany and especially Bavaria treated Mikhail Gorbachev,

and also how disgusting the German former Chancellor Angela Merkel tried to erase Helmut Kohl from history and negated his unique political status and successes for Germany, which would not have been possible without him.

But as a consequence of this 'German lie', the former President of the United States, Bill Clinton, thought, that his country was successful in a way it was not and that lead him to declare himself and his country erroneously the winner of the Cold War', which it was not.

This hybris was responsible for his confrontational policies towards the economically weak UDSSR, which also suffered under its very ill and consequentially weak leader Boris Jelzin,

It enabled that the US thought themselves the winners and subsequently could sell out the loosing Russian side, which they sold out under the noses of the Russian population to their economic disadvantage.

Only a strong lead under Vladimir Putin slowly was able to turn this economic disaster for the Russian population around and heighten living standards, income and economic success for his citizens.

With this new-found strength, Vladimir Putin, who, like Mikhail Gorbachev held a very positive Western world view and sympathies for European and German culture, approached a new economic and political defense system, to make all sides happy. He even followed the declared intentions of Helmut Kohl, who saw appeasement politics based on the interests of both sides as the logical solution for a peaceful and prosperous future for the Eurasian continent.

But the US as the 'winners' could not accept a sovereign Russian state, who took up his position in world economics and defense considerations and with the Ukraine supported a country to 'keep Russia down'. There is no other interpretation possible, with all the political and secret service papers lately revealed, which expressly formulated those exact doctrines.

So in my opinion, the fact that Germany did not express the truth about the true reasons for the German Re-Unification, but instead let the U.S. take the 'success' it did not deserve, is one main factor that caused the War in the Ukraine.

Non-News in Established Media - "Germany Once Again is Happily Participating in Genocide"

How will future historians once judge Germany? How can they see the madness repeat itself and the public opinion joining in the consent, that the bad they are doing is the 'right thing to do'? How can politicians turn around nonsensical arguments, repeat them continuously, make them the only tolerated opinion via public media and think that makes their nonsense truth?

In my opinion, the judgement of future generations will be devastating, not only over Germany, but especially Germany, because with its history and experiences in the last century, it should have known better.

But happily joining, supporting and encouraging another 'country', if you even can call this conglomerate of Zionists that, in eradicating another ethnicity and extinguishing the native population, in the future will most certainly receive the harsh judgement it deserves.

Causing the death of thousands of children, either by funding or delivering the bombs for the direct bombings, maiming and wounding of children, and intentionally starving the local population by blocking their access to water and food, and declining funding for the only remaining help-organization providing them with food and aid.

Not even the preliminary ruling of the ICJ gave them pause to rethink their position.

This will not strengthen their defense and pretenses of 'being on the right side of history', but rather will condemn them for all eternity.

P.S.: Remember, with an annoying food / sugar-intolerance, my tolerance for political madness is limited - and the previous Christmas-time with all the cookies and sweets did not help to lighten my mood.

So my judgement over the German politicians is as harsh as they deserve. I condemn them and would rather feel it adequate to see them in Den Haag in front of the International Court of Justice for their continuous ignoring and violating human basic rights.

In Memoriam Gonzalo Lira

Perhaps you ask, who Gonzalo Lira is, or rather was.
I won't give details to him or his background, or even my reasons for mentioning him and his passing here.

But today, things just became too much and I finally had to break my long silence here.

I am angry for so many reasons, and starting to write here again might cause me to break my equilibrium and finally explode.

In a way, this post already is that, me exploding - or at least bubbling over.

 

Gonzalo Lira (1968 - 2024, killed in and by UKR)

R.I.P.

Please take a moment and say a prayer with me for Gonzalo Lira and his family (he has two young children) and also for what he fought for - for the freedom of speech.
Is 'freedom of speech' as dead as he is now?

 

(I might not answer comments on this post, though I hesitate to restrict them altogether.)

What to Do in Case of Armageddon ...

The Bible clearly tells us what to do in case we learn that there is to be the end of the world tomorrow.

It is one of my favorite quotes from the Bible, which explains so much about the world, but also about our fears and how humankind should behave, compared to what it actually does.

"When tomorrow there is to be the end of the world, plant a tree today."

That certainly would help, if each and every one would do that.
Perhaps even on an annual basis, like China, who had achieved the sole effort ever that so far was able to push back the expansion of the desert.

But what do we do instead?

We reduce the availability of energy and heating in a way, that the population gets so desperate, that even the last trees are burned down, instead of thinking or having the resources left to planting new ones.

Way to go to save the world, humankind ...

 

Gluing yourself uselessly somewhere to hinder others to obtain their livelyhood - especially with toxic and environmentally dangerous instant glues - is far from overwhelming me as a constructive option to really do something helpful for our environment. It just shows the madness of brainwashed people, who have no real respect and regard for the value of life, especially if it is not only their own, but that of their neighbors.

Their efforts only leave desperately poor people far and wide. Which for them conveniently fulfills their hidden goal, to forcibly reduce the human population by letting them starve to death - obviously only the others, never themselves!

 

The Third Gender

 You will be surprised, why 'the Third Gender' is of interest to someone not being able to eat sugar.

But things quite honestly annoy me, especially when they are handled with stupidity.

And this question about the 'Third Gender', especially here in Germany, is handled with more stupidity than one would expect.

For example, that the naming 'the third gender' is just unreflectedly translated into German with 'das dritte Geschlecht' and used as a political slogan to force people to 'gender', is so out of place that you would expect people - especially the ones meant by this supposed 'more tolerance'-campaign - would protest by now. (But so far, I can't see any protests far and wide.)

German as a language per se has three genders - male, felmale and the third for things.

So if you say 'third gender' in Germany would automatically mean 'things'. So to propose that people in Germany declare themselves of belonging to the 'third gender' should raise astonishment.

Now, what could they have done? Declared themselves the fourth gender?

Of course they did not want that, as that would suggest, that they are beneath the previous three and only take fourth place (which by the way once again suggests what women always critizise - females come behind men and so are only regarded as second best. Though I want to add, that in history and especially in addresses in Germany, the female has the higher social status and comes before a man. Just our modern times forgot that appreciation of the female ability to procreate and guaranty the continued existence of our genes, which was the more valued position that needed and had a right to be protected.)

So, no fourth place for the 'new' gender.

But the greatest irony of it all is, that the short version for the 'new' third gender is 'D', once again an unreflected taking over of the English word 'diverse', which conveniently exists in Germany as well as 'divers'.

But D also is the initial for 'Ding', the German word for 'thing', which now completes the irony with the 'third gender'.

So, who in Germany willingly declares him-/her-/itself to belong to the 'third gender', if he is not a jokester? (Or should I have said jokester:innen?)

As a result, I don't trust any statistics the researchers come up with, as I doupt the right mind of people declaring themselves of belonging to any of those new categories or 'creations' of supposed 'inclusion', while separating so far included varieties of one sole thing, a human heart.

By the way, in my opinion a bit of tolerance towards our neighbors would come a long way in making stupid groupings and naming-exclusions unnecessary, as one would recognise how colorful the world really is and appreciate it in all its bandwidth.

P.S.: As usual, just my personal opinion. If you don't agree, I did not force you to read it. So go and vent somewhere else.

History & Medicine

In historic comparative studies, the sole main element that enhanced the lifespan of the population in the last century was ... (I will reveal it. Just stay for a moment longer.)

You will assume, the medical improvements, all the advanced medicine, better food, refrigerators, ...

NO!

It was the invention of the central heating and warmer room temperatures on average, to result in a significant increase in the lifespan of the population.

The medicine was confronted with illnesses and treatments for an aging population, that formerly had not been necessary, as the people would have already died by then. That increased the necessity for medicine and treatments, but they did not lead to this development, but rather are the result of it and might contribute to a much slighter extent to this development.

Therefore, the current demand for lower heating in the coming winter months could also be declared as an intentional reduction of the population.

Does anyone openly state that fact?

No, not to my knowledge.

Disclaimer:

Without sugar in my life, my patience for stupidity is rather limited. So do not wonder, when I state my dissatisfaction with nonsense quite openly here.

Cold Temperatures Especially Hinder Women

Just a note to remember ...

In the last few years, researchers proved, that women show better academic results, when the room temperatures are warmer, while the normal office temperatures of 17 - 19 degrees are too cold for women to show their optimal worth, but in contrast are ideal for men.

So, when we know, women will suffer most of a cold winter, to freeze is now declared 'patriotic' and a 'national duty'.

How very 'patriotic', to hinder women most of all ...

In Our Times More Than Ever ...

 "Destruction is the weapon of stupidity."

"Zerstörung ist die Waffe der Dummheit."

(RG 23.05.2021)

Health and Peace

[WARNING: This post is here, because this is a private diary blog with ramblings my friends can follow and not a public blog trying to convince anyone of anything or to open new conspiracy theories. - If you disagree, go elsewhere to ramble. Comments are closed on this post.]

 

With my fructose intolerance, I am very careful with my health, as every misstep is hurtful and has long lasting consequences that lets me rue it for a while. That on the other hand, makes the learning process quite a quick one, as you swear to yourself, never to make that error again ;o)

But every emotional upheaval is a challenge as well. Even travel is difficult, as when I don't drink enough (you know, toilets are rare and rarely fully trustworthy in trains), I don't feel well, get heavy headaches and feel tired or grouchy or unproductive for days.

But also, the news makes me feel grouchy and restless. Seeing what politicians made of world peace, is just too sad to watch. Watching the news on tv or online, makes my intestines constrict and as a consequence burn and ache.

The most depressing thing about that all is, that no political entity is far and wide to see, which would have the ability to settle the current upheavals and overcome the deep gaps between the rivaling parties.

In my surrounding, I am rather alone with seeing valid points and reasons, but also bad and intentionally war-driving actions on all sides.

I don't see that represented in any political argument, nor in the 'propaganda' of the press, which runs after an invented ideal of 'political correctness' that only makes things worse and is rather close to misinformation.

But to see reasons on all sides, should be the ability of a diplomat trying to barter peace. But all the discussions before the war in the Ukraine and all the politicians who went to Putin, had gone with fixed rules and on a moral high ground that had nothing to do with the real situation that caused the conflict.

And now, we have the result: War in the Ukraine

And I have stomach ache, though I did not make an eating misstep. Thank you, politicians, thank you, you jokesters. Where have you all been in your dreams during your history lessons? Certainly not listening and understanding anything ...

But what also annoys me about this war is, that women need peace to prosper, and war ensures the primacy of the male rule.

(That does not discard, that now women are in the army. That is not the topic or of any consequence here. - Women can be as great fools as can men.)

But for a woman to care for her family, to work and not fear rape and upheaval at every step, where she needs to defend herself against, means effort and strength that takes away from the life, work and environment she could create when her surrounding is in peace and well ruled and secured by police forces and a stable and well-founded rule.

So, why I detest the war the most is, that the male force, stubbornness and will to dominate once again take the rule and the brain, beauty, crafts and art loose.

What a pity and what dire consequences, that will follow us for the rest of our days (as many as there may be) ...

A Virus and my Moral Rumblings

[WARNING: This post is here, because this is a private diary blog with ramblings my friends can follow and not a public blog trying to convince anyone of anything or to open new conspiracy theories. - If you disagree, go elsewhere to ramble. Comments are closed on this post.]

With my fructose-intolerance, my health is twitchy anyway, as I have to check every ingredient of every food-particle I take into my mouth and am not always as successful as I would like. So a further health crisis is not the best news for me, nor is it for my whole family.

I have older parents I care for very much and a sister with family, who has her own special health issues, so I need to be very careful not to bring home a virus that could kill us all.

But what astonishes me so much about the whole CORONA discussion is, that people take it so lightly that they might become collective murderers.

This aspect is completely missing from the whole debate about the virus.

I partially can understand such a carelessness in countries that have the death penalty, like the U.S., Saudi Arabia, Israel and many others around the world, as their citizens are collective murderers anyway, as the state does the killing in each of their citizen's name.

But with CORONA, that responsibility now directly falls to each single individual and is reliant on their behavior. The accusation of 'murder', 'manslaughter' or at the minimum 'failure to render assistance' falls to each and every one of us, who behaves irresponsible.

My early argument during the lock-down in Spring this year was, that if we could safe one single life with the quarantine, it already was worth it. But all around looked at me strangely and certainly thought me crazy.

But to turn the argument around and say, we did nothing and one person died because of that, we all are responsible for that death equally and consequently should go to prison for that because of our active participation in killing him, at least under 'normal' morally intact circumstances.

But you see, that is the point:

We no longer - or never did - live in morally intact circumstances.

What surrounds us is not the effort to do right, but to gain the most.

Crises always mean more money for a few when others suffer. May that be war or any other crisis in the world.

So it is no wonder that conspiracy theories flourish, though they are so far off the mark that they are laughable. They are a result of envy, not of some knowledge and looking behind the world's glittering surfaces.

No, the ones ruling behind the scenes and making fortunes right now are not those who out of a sense of responsibility for humankind began warning of risks to the world population years ago and invested their own money to support the only available, halfway trustworthy world-spanning organizations.

No. Follow the money flow and you come much closer to the true culprits or the error of the world and its monetary system(s) right now. Though they are experts in hiding their traces, as they are with their fortunes and non-existent taxes.

The culprits and profiteers of the crisis make a fortune, while the majority of the population suffers and plays their game like well trained puppies, not having the brain to question the true motives and interests leading their propaganda and mis-information.

Becoming the puppet-on-strings of intentional murderers, as for those well-planned and selfish actions 'failure to render assistance' or even 'manslaughter' do no longer apply in a morally correct world, should be impossible in an enlightened and well-educated world.

But that is the next problem we currently face:

We no longer are 'a well-educated world'. (Or were we ever?)

We are a world of 'experts' and 'specialist', where nobody has the overview to understand any longer what is going on around us.

What, for example, does a programmer know about viruses? He thinks them to be a computer problem and not all viruses can effectively be caught and the fight against them is an ongoing process.

Well, in a way, he is right. But his life never is endangered by the 'usual' viruses he encounters. Also, his fight has nothing to do with the hard way to a vaccine in real life.

So neither can he judge the virus correctly, nor contribute to its destruction, except perhaps for providing programs that count and calculate results for laboratory technology.

But let's see what doctors can do. They are trained to hand out medicine or medical procedures to illnesses they have learned to recognize following a certain systematic.

But does that apply or help here?

The virus has new and changing or varying symptoms, making the detection difficult and requiring special, newly developed tests from laboratories.

Doctors neither can contribute to the fight, nor to the laboratory research for a vaccine. They only can - and are reduced to - collect data and observe the severely ill, as they still don't have an effective medication to fight the illness itself.

So, if we can exclude 'virus specialists', but also 'doctors', who should care for our health, who now in the world do we set our hopes on to rescue us from the virus?

The pharmaceutical laboratories!

Privately owned businesses, now getting major private investments and state funding around the world, to rescue the population and win the run for a functioning vaccine.

Now, fortunately, at least in some countries, state funded university laboratories take part in the run for the best vaccine, but mostly can't compete with the highly financed private laboratories of the pharmaceutical industry and have been bled out for the best inventions over decades.

But first of all, it is a run for the money as well as the fame and it leaves a bitter taste, at least for me, that the public interest is treated so negligently to leave it to capitalism and local governments with their individual lobbyism, to decide over the well-being of the world population.

Hopefully, future generations will find a better way to handle their survival.

Best of luck !

Reaction of My Doctor

At first, I did not go to a doctor immediately, but I did after a while, to get some help in how to cope with the manifold issues.
My first attempt ended rather strange, when the doctor just told me: "It is the age. I can't eat everything anymore either. Think about you getting older. You are not 20 any more."
Very helpful and not to the point. He completely ignored my story, that I could tell exactly when my issues had started. It was not age that caused my issues (and I am of middle age, not senile, at least as far as I know).
Well, I went home with no information at all.

My next attempt was to call a medical hotline advertised by my insurance company. There, it took a while to get someone on the line, as the direct hotline did not answer, but asked, if they could call me back when having a specialist on the line.
That was a good sign, I thought at the time. They must know something.
But the actual result of the talk was the more devastating.
The doctor right at the beginning told me, that he could recommend, for me to not eat anything with sugar.
Fine! That idea had never occurred to me, not when I started my request for information with asking for help with a severe fructose intolerance (and household sugar is 50% fructose, so that includes all kinds of sugar anyway). So to avoid sugar is a question if you want to survive rather than a question of choice.
(It is just much easier said than done.)

When I asked for more information, what could be done about it, he had no answer and explained a very simplistic model of cranes in the intestines transporting sugar through the walls of the intestines. A model so simplistic and even false in the assumption of a vehicle transporting sugar through the walls, that the late medical theories no longer even support it.

When I asked for e.g. help groups or even self-help information, he could not help me.
When I asked what food he could recommend not containing any sugar, he had no answer at all.
So I told him that even I by now knew more about what to avoid and what to eat, than he seems to do.
That got him very angry and he started to shout at me and list all his long years of experience and excellence. Having the intolerance with really painful reactions, I had not the least patience for a doctor whose only solution was, 'don't eat anything with sugar', while not even being able to name a single food which did not contain sugar and than having the audacity to shout at me.

Still, his sole information given, that I should not eat anything with sugar, certainly needed a long professional career to find out. I made that connection after four days, when the symptoms of my stomach bug did not cease, but only got worse.

You would now presume, that I had given up on doctors by now. But I was brave enough to try again.
I went to my doctor, because I have a constant cough that I can't get rid of - and in my opinion is connected to the fructose intolerance.
The doctor the first time gave me some medication against heartburn, because my lungs seemed not to be the cause of the coughing.
The result was, that my stomach protested the medication - which had no positive result whatsoever on me and my cough - and I had to slowly begin to restore my stomach back to health for over one month.

But still, as the cough is really annoying and heavy, I tried once again some time later, telling my doctor about the bad reaction to the heartburn medication.

The doctor the second time sent me to get an x-ray of the lung area. The result was, that I have an anormal amount of air in the stomach area. But as that is not a medically known issue or symptom, he could not do anything about it.
But the air most likely stimulates the diaphragm and consequently causes the coughing.
Against the fructose- and sugar reactions, he clearly stated that the medicine has no solution here. (Fortunately, he did not send me to a fructose test, as some clinics advertise. But that is not recommended from a medical standpoint and would only cause me pain for days, when the result is clear anyway.)

As the medicine had no solution here, the doctor was kind enough to think about a homeopathic solution and came up with pills containing peppermint- and caraway seed oil. The concept looked good, but the homeopathic pills contained sorbitol as part of the pills and that had very unpleasant effects on me. So I definitely can't recommend that to anyone. When the bleeding finally stopped, I swore to never try anything with any kind of sugar or sugar-substitute ever again.

So now, after all this attempts to find a medical solution, I have none and am back with self-testing what I can eat and what is better or worse and checking what I can tolerate once, repeatedly or indefinitely.

How I Acquired Fructose-Intolerance or Malabsorption

My discovery that I could no longer eat or drink anything containing even a tiny bit of fructose, was a sudden and hard one.
After knowing for a while that I could not eat all fruit with ease, but had to avoid some, a certain event turned my world of careful eating upside down.
I had received Christmas cookies from a friend, who was aware of my careful eating procedures. So I had not expected, to receive cookies from her, which entirely replaced the sugar with fructose.

The consequence was, that I became so ill, that I thought I would die and all attempts to get rid of this unprecedented and evil 'stomach bug', which I had thought it to be at first and which in the short period of just 1 1/2 weeks cost me 20 pounds of weight, were in vane.
My stomach ached so heavily, that I could not even place a hand on it and when I tried to do something for my fitness and attempted to lie down on the floor to exercise, I could not even get back up again, much less do any exercises, because my entire stomach musculature had stopped working.
I crawled sideways, dragging my body up by grasping my bed-frame and heaving the rest of my body up with the efforts of my arms and legs. The entire musculature in between had ceased to cooperate, but one day later came back alive with excruciating pain.
But at that time at least, I had already figured out, that the cause for my illness was not a flue or normal food poisoning, but instead the presence of fructose.

Since then, even tiny amounts of fructose or sugar are pure poison to me.
So the process started, in which I had to learn, what ingredients contained which amount of sugar. And believe me if I say, the ingredients list on the food packages is mostly not very helpful in this endeavor.

So the following months were stony and full of errors and loosing weight more and more.
Because eating sugar for me is not a way to gain weight, but the fastest way to loose it.